At first, I don't feel peaceful again because I realised most of my project groups have those who won't contribute. Although I expected this ever since I chose the Retail option, however, it is still not a good feeling to know that people like that will be working with you. You can say they are working with you only if they DID work, if not, they are just, put there as a group member in name only.

It is really difficult, because I find it unfair to give marks to free-riders when they did nothing, but on the other hand, if I were to feedback about it to the tutors, they may just fail the module and graduate a semester later than all of us. It is none of my business that they fail, however I do not wish to see this happening, because even though we may not be friends, we are still classmates after all. I think I have high expectations on my schoolwork and projects, and this may cause stress to my group members, but I believe if I have to do something I should do it right. It is a student's responsibility.

I was rather upset today when I found out that very little was done, and the deadline is on Thursday. I prayed to God for his blessings and help because I felt really helpless and God is the only one I can turn to. I felt a little better and peaceful after praying.

In the end, when I just came online, one of my group member msn-ed me regarding the project, he apologised because he thought he had been a burden. The other also finally promised to do something, all without my prompting at all.

Thank God for his blessings. It is good to know that God is always there to help us.

I decided to give them another chance, and see how everything goes by tomorrow. Hopefully everything can be completed by tomorrow.

I REGRET GOING FOR THE SBM CLUB MEETING.

Yes, otherwise I won't have to be the program in charge for SBM Day event, which I have been wasting my time on. I should have rejected the President's offer when she asked. I should have stand firm. I should have made my "NO" loud enough for her to hear. I didn't even agree or said okay when she asked. But in the end, I still can't escape.

If I didn't go at all none of this would happen. I am busy enough as it is. It's been so long since I regretted doing something this much.

I want to quit.

A week of school term just went pass, and that marks the real beginning of the studying days. No more slacking around.

I am still not used to the new class yet. I just feel that many things changed and suddenly I feel my life is in a mess. There was a period of time when I don't feel at peace at all. I felt that I just lost all my momentum and peace, which made me rather frustrated and grumpy. I should have known better not too let my emotions get the better of me, but I still snapped at other people. My apologies for that. Reading the Bible does help me feel better though, Thank God for guiding me through this rather hectic week.

School is starting in like, less than 5 days. This time, it is back to the academics.

I feel happy because:

1) I can FINALLY take the Japanese Language lessons, although it is just beginner's class but I am glad that I can take my first few steps in something I really like.

2) My latest lessons end at 6pm, which means I have no night classes.

I feel unhappy because:

1) All the breaks are so long! I think they are 3 hours.

2) Wednesdays are long days! (8am to 5pm)

Actually I am looking forward to the end of this semester. Yes, even before it started. This is because I can start on official Japanese Language lessons at Japanese Association, if possible.